Wednesday, December 07, 2011

When did this become my life?

I just can't think...

                                                                                can't sleep.....

                               can't imagine...


                                                            But somehow in the midst of my life,

                in the last 3 weeks,

                                             we've lost a baby

                                                                                                 caught lice 

                           and now Andy's department is being dissolved at SLU

                   and we need to move, (and sincerely hoping he gets a job).    



From the city I love so much (there are no words to express how much),

                                 from friends who have changed my life and I will miss dearly
                             

and from my dear family who moved here to be with me

                                                      and I can't breathe if I think about it for too long.


I need to believe that God doesn't punish....


                                                                              I need to believe in something...

I need to BREATHE DEEPLY




4 comments:

Alice Wills Gold said...

I wish I could be there to give you a hug. This is one big long virtual hug with tears streaming down my face.

I'm so sorry. I don't understand, but I do know that God is watching over you and will provide.

I know it is cliche but try to find something to be grateful for. I am sooo jealous of yours and Andy's marriage...be grateful for that.

And take some drugs to sleep Heather. You need that sleep to help you deal with the stress. Trust me on this one.

Love you so much and will vamp up the prayers.

Melissa said...

Heather!!! Wow, that is a lot to take in! In my experience, both good and bad things happen in waves. You are being prepared and placed where you need to be. Now that your family is all so close, I'm sure that makes this even more challenging.

We love you guys!

Natalie said...

WHAT?!....... We need to get together and eat some chocolate! STAT!

Shelley said...

Heather, We don't always know why we go through trials. But I do know God has a plan for you. Trust him. He knows the desires of your heart and he is preparing something for you and your family. Be patient and keep living life. Everyone here has been richly blessed to know your family. You have influenced us for good.
We love you and are praying for all of you.