When did this become my life?

I just can't think...

                                                                                can't sleep.....

                               can't imagine...


                                                            But somehow in the midst of my life,

                in the last 3 weeks,

                                             we've lost a baby

                                                                                                 caught lice 

                           and now Andy's department is being dissolved at SLU

                   and we need to move, (and sincerely hoping he gets a job).    



From the city I love so much (there are no words to express how much),

                                 from friends who have changed my life and I will miss dearly
                             

and from my dear family who moved here to be with me

                                                      and I can't breathe if I think about it for too long.


I need to believe that God doesn't punish....


                                                                              I need to believe in something...

I need to BREATHE DEEPLY